Tuesday, November 5, 2019

On Writing - A Thanksgiving snippet from This Darkness is Mine

THANKSGIVING SNIPPET FROM THIS DARKNESS IS MINE


Michelle and Joe accepted Barbara’s invitation to Thanksgiving dinner. Once seated at the familiar pale table, Leon asked, “So how is work? Is it picking up?”

Michelle glanced at Joe and squirmed. “Um, well, it’s still slow, but--”

Joe clamped his hand on her shoulder and cut in. “She doesn’t have to worry. I’ll help her out until season picks up. She wanted to make it to a luxury level spa for a long time, at least that’s what she told me, and now that she made it, I’ll pitch in. Nobody has to worry about her future. We’ve got this.”

Michelle tilted her head at Joe and stroked his thigh. “I’m so grateful to you. All of you. You’re giving me a chance to stick it out with massage. All the therapists keep telling me it’s going to pick up in December.”

“When we got that massage table for you, I thought it was just going to be a hobby,” Barbara said. “I’m so proud that you stuck it out, honey. Here, have some casserole.”

“Massage is a suicide mission,” said Leon, shaking his head and clasping his hands.

“A hobby?” Michelle held the platter of green bean casserole midair and pursed her lips at Leon. She’d always believed the massage table indicated their faith in her.

Leon said, “Plus most of your own customers are only here in winter. That self-employed life you and Allen live, it’s not for me. Give me slow and steady. I won’t get rich, but I’ll be KUM-fuh-tubble. You’d be on the street if Joe wasn’t supporting you, if all of us weren’t helping you out. I hope you show him some appreciation and make him happy. But how can you? You’re not domesticated. You can’t even make up a bed.”

“Please don’t fuck things up right now, Leon.” Michelle reddened. “Joe and I are building a relationship slowly and it’s solid. I feel good about what we have.”

“Don’t talk to her like that.” Joe’s eyes flashed like launched missiles. “She’s got a lot on her plate and she’s very supportive, easy to talk to, and her career is going to take off now.”

“The food is delicious, Barbara,” said Janet, smiling.

“Thanks, Mom,” said Barbara, winking at Michelle.

“I’m not saying anything bad about my sister,” said Leon. “She is who she is, and I love her. I’ll help her. I’ve helped her all her life. Nobody can take that away from me. When I look my father in the eye in the resurrection in heaven, he’ll say ‘Well done, Leon. You took good care of your sister.’ That’s all I want.”

Michelle shook her head slowly and leaned over to whisper in Joe’s ear. “You see how dysfunctional my family is?”

He whispered back, “You say that like your family should be different from everyone else’s. It’s obvious they all love you. You just keep doing what you’re doing.”



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Sunday, November 3, 2019

On Writing and Competing

The last few weeks have been a blur. I went on a six-day vacation (whew!), competed in a couple contests for writers, and came away with one win so far.

Pitchwars is a competition intended to pair writers with mentors to work one on one to get a manuscript as close to market-ready for pitching to literary agents and/or publishers in February in Pitch Madness (known agonizingly/affectionately as PitMad on Twitter).

DVPit is another competition on Twitter, but it's for "Diverse Voices" manuscripts. That happened on October 29th.

This is how my timeline unfolded:

  • April 2007 announce that I'm a writer

  • September 2017 realize I have a story to write and freeze. Finally get a coach to motivate me through it and sit down to write it (yeah a 10 year gap from declaration to action)

  • October 2017 begin practice of watching motivational videos every single morning on YouTube

  • October 2018 interview a spiritual healer who uses Mandalas as part of her method of healing. Join a writers group at the library.

  • January 2019 get interview published in Conscious Life Journal πŸ’ͺ

  • April 2019 lose heart while editing for the dozenth time, and nearly quit. πŸ˜“Tap my Twitter friends for reinforcement, write something else for awhile

  • May 2019 invite a shortlist of trusted people with various backgrounds to beta read my manuscript during July and August

  • June 2019 finish round of edits, print and bind copies of manuscript, ship them to beta readers and pass out. Write daily vss365a for entries to be considered for inclusion in the VSS365 Anthology

  • July-August 2019 kill myself at work. Zero writing, except for daily vss365.

  • September 2019 receive back beta readers' feedback and read through their notes. Decide which comments are actionable and work them into the story. Find out about Pitchwars and enter competition. Get acceptance into the VSS365 Anthology and lose my mind! 😲😁

  • October 2019 answer potential mentor's questions. Find out about DVPit and enter competition. Get a LIKE from a literary agent and scramble to format my comparable titles section, and submit my query package the following day. Start writing super short stories (decide they're not half bad and fun to write). 

  • November 2019 keep writing short stories, submit one to a university literary journal for consideration. Save one as a marketing piece. Working on one to submit to a reputable competition with a cash prize. Figure out what to do with another. Received notification that a mentor accepted me as her mentee from Pitchwars (friend fills me in that this is a really big deal because hundreds applied and each mentor only selects ONE) 😲😍😎
Not everyone should take twelve years to go from declaring they want to pursue their innermost dreams until they take concrete action.

I recommend starting IMMEDIATELY, but that's only an option. Making the decision to take my dream seriously because God knows, not many did, made all the difference. I spent too much of my life getting shot down before I even tried, so I just decided to save people the trouble and shot myself down.

Years of therapy sunk in. I don't shoot myself down anymore. If I fly, I fly. If I fall, I fall. But I won't stifle my soul by not even trying or by quitting. I'm taking my soul's joy seriously and investing whatever time I want to in making it healthy, happy, and strong.


Make someone else's day magical!
Mackenzie